Clarity

Well it has been three weeks for my son at preschool and he is still there. Yeah I wasn’t sure how it would go but God is always good. We have had two rough days but they love him and he loves going. It has been one week for Bret he seems to like school. We are getting along well. Brayden wants us to go pick him up over the big bridge. We got a web cam this week so we could see him when we talk and it has been fun playing with it. Hayley tried out for middle school worship team today. Wow it is so good being a mom. I'm not sure who was more nervous. Heather and I hide around the corner and tried to listen. We have to wait to hear but she is very excited. I have been trying to prepare her that she might not make it. It was interesting today at church Ed was saying that sometimes when you read the Bible words just seem to jump out at you. That has been my quiet time this week. I shared with Heather that when Bret is gone I feel closer to God than any other time. I’m not sure why that is. God just fills my heart when my husband can’t and I look forward to hearing from him in this season. I look forward to sharing what God give me this week with you soon.

As I re-read this I don’t know why I blog it is really just me rambling on. I will try to be more focused.

Oh one more thing the best part of this week the OFFICE

BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY

As I sit to write this today. I am listening to Fergie song Big girls don’t cry . As I am getting ready for this weekend I am trying to remind myself of those words. Saturday morning Bret leaves for Rhode Island for 10 weeks than he will return the weekend before Thanksgiving. Bret will than move to lovely Lemoore. We will than see him hopefully 2 weekends a month. He will be there till February or March than deploy for 8 months. When we learned of this last April what could I do I said we will make it work. But as this weekend approaches this pill seems harder to swallow. Please friends if you see me in church and I seem wet at the eyes just look away or you could be in for a big cry. As the song says it’s time to be a big girl now. After all the deployments and goodbyes it never gets any easier.

Brayden First Day at Preschool

Well today was Brayden’s first day at preschool. I spent most of last night not sleeping, with thoughts and prayers that he would have fun and play nice.. Anyway as I sweated through the night I finally decide at 5 to get up and get on my knees. As I prayed I wasn’t sure how else to ask God to be present with Brayden and help him today, so than I started praying for all of the other children who would be with him today. So I woke up all of the children who had slept in my room. I took Hayley and Alyssa to school than Brayden and I came home a got ready. It was very funny he wanted me to do his hair. After I spiked it up he looked at me and said I need a man’s hair cut. We went to school and as I left I prayed that the pick up would be smooth. I almost called twice to see if he was being good but I thought no they will call if they need me. Well I picked him up and they said nothing but wonderful things. He was a good listener and he followed directions he shared toys. They said he was very talkative and that he had a big vocabulary. As they told me I almost started to cry. This afternoon I Thank you God for today.