White Christmas

We leave tomorrow for our big trip. I have lived in San Diego for 17 years and it still does not feel like Christmas with out the snow. I love going home at this time of year. Colorado just got a bunch of snow all the mountains will look beautiful. I always get so excited about going home. My family rents out a large home in the mountains and we all stay together for three or four days. It is so fun and very crazy. I guess all family's have craziness. The kids and I will drive to Lemoore and stay two nights with Bret than early Saturday we will start our big trip. The kids love going skiing and sledding. Every year we take them skiing and I am always so amazed how well they do. I hope all my friends in San Diego have a wonderful Christmas. I truly miss my time with the choir and the Christmas service. See you next year.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Lemoore

I flew up to see Bret last night for his Christmas party. It was his first official function at his new job. When I arrived I saw this and thought God was showing me that Lemoore was going to be a great place.

Than Bret drove around the corner and showed me where he is living. I thought he was joking sorry to say he's not.


I have spent the last week fighting with Bret about feeling sorry for myself with all the things that I had to do by myself. God today show me very clearly that he is giving up a lot. I came home not sure what this next year will bring.

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Proud

I just got this and wanted to share. Bret started his new job today and will deploy in March. I hope you enjoy.

Thanksgiving

Today I want to start with what I am thankful for, you can enjoy this song while reading

5. My house the fires made me remember how blessed I am

4. My health

3. My friends and family God has truly blessed me

2. My Husband and Children even in the mist of crazy

1. My God and his undying love for me

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving

Tweens

Yes I have been a mother of tweens for a while but I guess I didn’t really think it until now. Hayley and I were at the store getting milk and she started to ask me to buy something at the check out I of course thought it was candy and was ready with we have plenty at home. But to my surprise it was the BOP magazine. Yes we are now into teen Bop. I am really feeling old, I keep telling myself I’m not but I had no idea who the Jonas Brothers were. I remember when I wrote love letters to Sean Cassidy and John Travolta. Well I guess I am jumping in I will let you know what I find out. I will keep us all hip on the lasted crazes

PICTURES

I am only putting these here because all of you asked. I think it came out good. In case any one is wondering yes it hurt no I did not cry and yes I self medicated.

TATTOO

I think it is very interesting the feelings people get when they see them and the judgment that people have. Most people love them or hate them. I have two and am getting another tonight. I have one on my back that has five flowers one for each person in my family. I have had it for about six years. When I got it we only had four in our family but Bret and I where trying to have more and I new we would be blessed with another child. I also have one on my hip most people haven’t seen. I have had this one for about fifteen years. This one I am getting changed tonight. When I got this tattoo Bret was with me and it just seemed fun. Well many years later I have decided to change it. My children know I have tattoos and people ask me or should I say my mother asks what I tell them about getting them. We have a few rules in our house one is you can only have two holes in your ears anything else you have to wait till your eighteen. Another is any tattoos you want you have to be eighteen to get. Anyway about a year ago my oldest daughter started talking to me about my tattoo on my hip and I felt like I didn’t have the answers for her. She wanted to know why I picked it do I like it what was it supposed to mean. I really started thinking about it and I first thought of having it removed but than I thought I would rather have it changed. The girl that got this tattoo has grown. So I have decided to have the tattoo changed just as I have changed. I have waited all summer because of my Tri training you can’t get a tattoo wet and swimming in the nasty bay water would not have been good. So tonight is the night I am getting another flower I am excited to see how he covers what I already have. I might post a picture tomorrow of the before and after not sure.

WE DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!

As most of your know we did a Triathlon yesterday. I can say it was crazy. A year ago when I talked to Heather about the Tri or into the Tri we thought sure. We started training in January. When we started I couldn’t even swim one lap. I am not a good swimmer, but twice a week I tried to swim at the gym. I have a good back stroke so I new that I could make it that way if needed. When Heather and I arrived Sunday morning it was still dark we put all of our things in the transition area and took a look around. We decided to go check out the swim. I thought I was going to cry or be sick. It looked very long. As Heather and I stood around waiting for our heat to start we looked like deer in headlights. We saw Becky and cheered for her as she took off. We headed over to get our wet suits on. There is no way to look cool trying to put on a skin tight suit over clothes. Jim arrived with the children. They were all very excited I still felt very sick and worried. When it was time for our wave we walked to the water and I got a swim buddy. A swim buddy is someone who swims next to you and signals if you need help. My buddy was Joy. As Joy, Heather and I got in the water it was very cold, the kind of cold that takes your breath away. When the horn blew off we went. I started freestyle and quickly turned over to my back. After a bit I yelled to my buddy and ask if we were half way there yet. Happily she said yes. I than started thinking don’t go to fast I want to have some energy for the bike. Next thing she said get ready to turn to the left to go around the buoy. I asked her if I was last she said no and that I had caught someone from the wave before us. I flipped over to finish the swim and tried to remember to have my hands hit the sand twice before standing up. As I stood up to run out of the water I thought praise God I made the swim. I started to run into the transition area I was trying to remember to take off my cap, goggles and wet suit as I ran. As I arrived to get my shoes Heather was just getting her bike to leave. She gave me a smile and said she new I could do the swim. As I got my bike I was trying to remember to get my helmet on and walk my bike out of transition. I started out on the bike very tried. When we first came out we went right over the bridge I tried to get some water a dropped my water bottle right in front of three other bikers thankfully they didn't hit it . The ride was long but I felt good. As we headed in from the bike I tried to remember everything I was told don’t take off you helmet until your bike was racked put on my runners belt with my race number. When I arrived back I met up with Heather. I can say that it is very hard to get your legs going after the bike. Heather kept saying she felt like we were running on 2 inch legs. Heather and I talked the entire run. At the one mile sign a man was getting sick I was thankful it was not us. The bridge was rough going up. As Heather and I talked I shared that we can so do this we were going to finish strong. When we started down the last part of the bridge I was telling Heather the end was in sight. As we came off the bridge we saw a man ringing a cow bell we said ring it louder. As we headed into the last fifty yards you can feel the excitement of the crowd. We looked up the line and saw Jim with the Kids. We than past some friends from the gym they all started to scream and clap than the kids started yelling. As we crossed the finish line the overwhelming feeling of success was wonderful. As Heather and I walked back to get our bikes we hugged each other and just felt such a since of joy and achievement. Achievements are that much sweeter when shared with a friend. I’m not sure that I will ever do this again but I will always remember that I did it with my friend.

Clarity

Well it has been three weeks for my son at preschool and he is still there. Yeah I wasn’t sure how it would go but God is always good. We have had two rough days but they love him and he loves going. It has been one week for Bret he seems to like school. We are getting along well. Brayden wants us to go pick him up over the big bridge. We got a web cam this week so we could see him when we talk and it has been fun playing with it. Hayley tried out for middle school worship team today. Wow it is so good being a mom. I'm not sure who was more nervous. Heather and I hide around the corner and tried to listen. We have to wait to hear but she is very excited. I have been trying to prepare her that she might not make it. It was interesting today at church Ed was saying that sometimes when you read the Bible words just seem to jump out at you. That has been my quiet time this week. I shared with Heather that when Bret is gone I feel closer to God than any other time. I’m not sure why that is. God just fills my heart when my husband can’t and I look forward to hearing from him in this season. I look forward to sharing what God give me this week with you soon.

As I re-read this I don’t know why I blog it is really just me rambling on. I will try to be more focused.

Oh one more thing the best part of this week the OFFICE

BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY

As I sit to write this today. I am listening to Fergie song Big girls don’t cry . As I am getting ready for this weekend I am trying to remind myself of those words. Saturday morning Bret leaves for Rhode Island for 10 weeks than he will return the weekend before Thanksgiving. Bret will than move to lovely Lemoore. We will than see him hopefully 2 weekends a month. He will be there till February or March than deploy for 8 months. When we learned of this last April what could I do I said we will make it work. But as this weekend approaches this pill seems harder to swallow. Please friends if you see me in church and I seem wet at the eyes just look away or you could be in for a big cry. As the song says it’s time to be a big girl now. After all the deployments and goodbyes it never gets any easier.

Brayden First Day at Preschool

Well today was Brayden’s first day at preschool. I spent most of last night not sleeping, with thoughts and prayers that he would have fun and play nice.. Anyway as I sweated through the night I finally decide at 5 to get up and get on my knees. As I prayed I wasn’t sure how else to ask God to be present with Brayden and help him today, so than I started praying for all of the other children who would be with him today. So I woke up all of the children who had slept in my room. I took Hayley and Alyssa to school than Brayden and I came home a got ready. It was very funny he wanted me to do his hair. After I spiked it up he looked at me and said I need a man’s hair cut. We went to school and as I left I prayed that the pick up would be smooth. I almost called twice to see if he was being good but I thought no they will call if they need me. Well I picked him up and they said nothing but wonderful things. He was a good listener and he followed directions he shared toys. They said he was very talkative and that he had a big vocabulary. As they told me I almost started to cry. This afternoon I Thank you God for today.

Middle School

Well summer has flown bye, I can’t believe another school year has started. Alyssa is going into 3rd and my Hayley into 6th. It doesn’t seem like a huge move for Halyey going into middle school because she will stay at the same school. But at church she moved up to the Riptide. All summer she has been so excited about the move and going to a small group. Today I sat in a room with a handful of other middle school parents as Josh explain what to expect from the riptide. At on point he shared that next year they may talk about sex and God’s views on it and dating. We had not even pulled out of the church parking lot when my daughter started to question me. What did he mean talk about sex? What would he say? Would he do the talking even to the girls? And what about dating? You said I am never allowed to date. As I drove I thought really God is this what you have for me today. So I look forward to all the conversation that my child who I still think is five and I will be having.

My Natalie

My sweet dear Friend Natalie. I went to visit her this past week. Thank you to Heather and Becky who helped me with my kids. My friend has MS. She has had it for 3years and it is just getting worse. She was excepted into a research study using her stem cells. Last year they took 70 and 120 died this year they only took 3. For six weeks over the summer she has been going through testing and they have been taking bone barrow. Three weeks ago they gave her a Hick man line, it is two tubes that go into your heart to give IVs. This week she checked in to the hospital for this study. They have had her on Four different kinds of Kemo everyday since Tuesday. Tomorrow they will start putting her own stem cells back into her clean and the thought is that her MS will not be gone but will get know worse. It is hard to see me dear friend barely able to walk. She has three children Taylor 13, Julia 10, and Jimmy 8. When I arrived last Sunday we had a birthday party for Julia's and one last night at home with her kids. It was hard because they are all so scared. Monday we where off to the hospital it is a 3 hour dive and ferry ride. We got the last blood draw and she got the ok to check in on Tuesday. So she stayed with me at my Hotel that night we ordered Outback and movies. Tuesday the tension was high. I had some quite time and ask for the right words to share. Many times during the day she looked at me like she wanted to say so much. As I held her hand and prayed she just sobbed. As I left Tuesday night wondering when we would see each other again. My heart ached as we sat and cried. She has lived in Washington 5 years and has not made many close friends. I have called daily and she did good till yesterday. Tomorrow it starts getting scary her immune system is at zero. I ask that all of you life her up this week.

TEXAS

I don't think I should need to say more. I am visiting my mother for the first time since she moved here. We are in Austin and it is sticky. I love that at the store I see woman walking around in short shorts and cowboy boots. So far the best thing is I went to church with my mom and Brayden did not get kick out of sunday school. YEA The message was all about the song Everlasting. They played it four times. I LOVE that song. I feel like I have to stand anytime I hear it. Now they do not stand at this church or lift a hand. I have to say I had to sit on my hands. I always like going to other church to remind me what an awasome church we have. I did see a lady who I thought might go up but no. Heather said I should have stood and freed the church. I am going back next week we shall see what they have going on. My daughters have also be attending horse camp. They love seeing grandma who spoils them. Anyway first day at camp Hayley who has been riding for 2 years got her foot stepped on by a horse. It is very purple and puffy. Spent the evening in urgent care. But it's not broke just some tissue damage. It is not really a vacation till there is a trip the the local ER. Well I will let you know any more great fashion tips I pick up out here. They do love to sparkle things. You may see me with a large banna hair clip with a red white and blue flag next.

Update 2

Well it was short lived but it was nice to have a couple hours with out my children. Yesterday I had high hopes. I dropped my children off and I went to climb Cowles Mountain. I climbed up the mountain listening to praise music and praying. I had some time talking with God about my son. I know he can see the big picture but I am struggling right now. As a human I want it to be fixed right now. Anyway as I came down the mountain I thought I had some fresh thoughts and a clear head. Than my phone rang, it was VBS could you please come get your son. As I drove over to get him I began to ask for wisdom to know how to respond. Upon my arrival none of the ladies spoke to me and the judging looks were all on me. As I got Brayden and Hayley who was with him we left. As I left the room one lady came running down the hall do you think you will come back tomorrow, as I stood there feeling like crying I just said no and thank you. As I spoke with Hayley and asked what happened she said that he wouldn’t sit down for lesson time and when they went outside he wouldn’t play the games. I said did he hit, she said no bit,push? No I felt like this was a victory. God have me this to remember they are only little once and this will pass. I praise my son for not hitting and pray that we will learn to sit for story time. Today is a new day and I can’t wait to see what God has in store for me.

update

Day one started wonderful. My oldest daughter decided to go to VBS as a helper. I had the morning to myself. It was great. Fast forward to the pick up. As I am in prayer as I wait in line to pick my little angel up I say his name the ladies in the room look at me. The head lady comes towards me could you please come in here, we need to talk to you. My heart sinks as I hear about my son. He had a rough morning. I said sorry and left feeling like mother of the year. They said please bring him again. So today my oldest daughter is going to stay in his room with him. If he can not be good he won't go back. I know it might just be to much for him. I will spend this morning in prayer. I know this will pass but when you are in the middle of going through a rough time it is hard to see the other side. I will update later on our day.

SUMMER

Friday was my children’s last day of school and I have wasted no time in signing us up for VBS. This year Brayden can go. I am very excited but I did spend last night praying that he would be a good boy. He did not do so well at church yesterday. Anyway I don’t think VBS is meant to make you break out with hives praying that your son is good. I will give you an update this afternoon. Pray for Brayden wait maybe the other children.

DOG SHOW

Ok there was not much on TV last night so I was watching Animal Planets dog show. I have a few thoughts. First do they not have mirrors at these shows? The ladies that showed the dogs are wearing the worst outfits. Most have suits on from the 80’s and brown tennis shoes, or some have very nice sweat outfits made of shinny nylon. I also noticed that the announcer liked to say bitch a lot. It was a bit strange as he described every other dog as a bitch and of course he has several bitches at home. But the very best thing was they have different judges for each division. So as the hound group came out the judge and expert on hounds came out. She was about 65 years old a little larger. She had on nice flat black shoes. She was also wearing a black sequined top. Then the best was her full length black skirt. Now this seemed like a great choice, I thought finally a woman that can dress her age and look nice. But then as she turn to reveal a slit in the side of her skirt that went all the way up her thigh. Yes it is true, I am not kidding she had a slit to the middle of her thigh. I was in shock. I called Bret over made him look. As I am writing this now and I am remembering this and wondering what was she thinking.

We WON

My daughter has been playing softball for three months. Many games two hours each and we have lost every game. But tonight our last game we won. I am so excited for my daughter and all of her teamates. All of us parents were just screaming in shock. As your children get older you want them to experience wins and losses. But tonight we WON.

A WEEK WITH THE JOEL'S

What a crazy week. My children had last week off and I of course tried to make it great. We went to two movies the beach twice and the batting cages. I am just tired thinking about our week. We also had two softball games a horseback lesson and Karate lesson. The high light of the week was our new family member. We had to put one of our family dogs to sleep two years ago and I have wanted to get another dog for a while. I new we would get one this summer I just thought it would be later. So the girls and I started looking at all the shelters and a few rescue groups. We found a dog we wanted from a non-profit group called paws for passion. They had an address of La Jolla. Anyway I emailed about a dog. A lady called me back we thought it would be a great match. Then she said she was in San Pedro. Now the dog looked and sounded nice but I was not going to drive with my three kids and my dog to go see it. So we keep looking. Then Friday night at 10p I got an email that she would bring the dog to Enceintes to meet us in Saturday. We meet the dog and fell in love. He was a stray dog that was about to be destroyed till he was rescue. I love that my children are learning that just because a dog is not a puppy, that it doesn’t mean it’s not a great dog. They can see how we are saving a dog from being destroyed. I also prefer older dogs I have to many puppies of my own. Teddy is a chow-akita mix. He is full grown and a little smaller than our other dog. He has let Brayden lay on him drive a truck in to him and doesn’t move. He does bark. Which I like my other dog never does. With Bret getting ready to leave I want a dog that will a least let me know if someone is coming in. Well this is my week. Oh wait what about Sunday we went to church my daughters want to double services because they sing in the galaxy worship choir. I came to second service loved it than I see my loving sons # flashing at the end. So I walked down the aisle prepare my heart for what I was about to hear. I am told about how my son was hitting and bit another child. Now Brayden is a hitter but this is the first bit. Natalie proceeded to tell me that if he couldn’t act like a good boy he couldn’t come back. So I ended my weekend on the knees asking God for guidance about my son. I also spent hours on the internet looking for help. I started my day with a positive outlook awaiting to see what God has in store this week.

My Kids

I know God has a sense of Humor. I look at my kids and how different they all are and how different they are from me. My oldest daughter Hayley smart as a whip. (well that is just like me) . She sees things very black or white no gray a rule follower she is also shy. She is also not the most graceful child, sometimes she is just standing there and falls down. Then there is the middle one Alyssa. She also is very smart (again just like her mama). She is very popular and personable. Alyssa is also a leader and wants to be the life of the party. (not sure where she gets that). Alyssa is also our athlete she excels at every sport she does it comes very easy for her. This is also my child who is very competitive and has melt downs when she losses. This brings me to my son Brayden. He makes me laugh and cry daily. He asks a lot of questions and is very determined. He also likes to tell me he loves me 20 times a day. As we have been potty training he would rather pee outside than in the house. He also likes to sit around naked and put the soft blanket on himself. (he must get that from Bret). As I see each week fly by and once in a while slow down to look at what a gift I have in my children I wonder what God has in store for them and me. I laugh that my oldest is the opposite of me at that age but I am so very grateful that she is. Alyssa can have me so angry in seconds but I know she will never be pushed around and I don’t worry about people picking on her. I’m not sure yet about Brayden at this point he just wants to have lots of buddies and go on a pirate ship. I try not to take credit for all the great things my children do because than I have to take credit for the not so great things. I love being a mom and am so thankful for the job.

My Friend

I wanted to blog today about my friend. Twice I have thought about blogging about her but thought it was a bit hooky but today is the day. I thank God for many things in my life he has blessed me with. Heather is often at the top of the list. Yesterday she gave her testimony and I was so happy she did. She is a woman of grace and pose and as she shared it is so obvious why so many women want to be her friend. People are drawn to her and want to be in her company. Although we are both in are early thirties sometimes I swear we are in our early teens. Heather is one of two people that I laugh with so hard I cry. Last night as I drove us home from what was supposed to be a spiritual evening I found us laughing so hard I thought I was going to have to pull over. I was crying, driving only 20 people would have thought I was drunk. I can call her at any time and it is a pick me up. So as I start my day I thank God that he brought my friend in to my life and gave me this gift of friendship.

Our Anniversary

We celebrated our 13th anniversary last night. (Hallelujah) It made me think of our wedding day. My mother was going through her third divorce and my father on his fourth marriage. Not having any idea what a good marriage should look like, I walked down the asle scared to death. I thought what am I doing. But as scared as I was God had this plain. Now as I look back over the years we have had hard times but I am so happy to say I would do it all again. Over the years we both have learned how to let little things slide and put up with others. We have grown up together, and are in this for the long hall. Bret being in the military has to leave for deployments sometimes, and yes it is hard. But this is the one I choose and you make it through with family and friends. So last night I took us somewhere new for dinner Mr. A’s. It was wonderful. As we talked I said, I can’t think of one couple that we know that is military that is still married to the same people that they were when we got married. On the news they were talking about the high divorce rate in the military. I know it can be hard to be alone, especially with kids. I think many families have this military or not. People travel for work and one spouse is home alone for a few days or weeks. Seven months is the longest Bret has been gone and it was hard. I can say I have never felt closer to God in my life. When you take away your partner and solely rely on God he will never disappoint. He fills me up and never lets go. So as I look forward to my next year of marriage and all that it holds, I pray that God will continue to bless my marriage.

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Camera Phone

I need a camera phone. Over the last few years as I have lost, broke or drove off with my phone on the roof of my car, I’ve always gone and upgrade and got the nicer phone and gave my husband the big free one. So this last December when his phone finally broke I upgrading his and he got a camera phone. He does not need one I do. As I have had several reason
1. Buying a purse I needed my friends input, if I had one click done
2. Trying to find something to wear for my big lip sync concert (Easter) needed some advice
3. My friend having bad day needed to send funny picture
4. Swimming, a man on side of pool with see through Speedo on doing yoga almost choked on pool water needed proof no one would believe me
5. My friend could answer question, do these make me butt look big

So I am just waiting for my phone to die or to be dropped. One side note the only way any of these will work is if my buddy gets one to, so H2 get a camera phone.

Glass Half Full

I am usually a glass is half full person, but the last couple of weeks I have been half empty. The last couple of weeks have not been smooth sailing. So last night I had a talk with myself and said this week will be a half full week. I am greatful that I have two working legs that I can run on. I am thankful that I have children that I get to discipline. I love that my husband makes enough money for me to go to the grocery store five times in a week for food I forget. I am greatful that even in off weeks my father still loves me even when I whine.

OSCAR

I love watching the Oscars. My family and I had gone to a party and watched the pre-show than about an hour of the show. When we got home Hayley my 10 year old wanted to stay up a watch a little more. Eight is bed but I said ok. That proved to be were God would step in and have a great moment for me. As Hayley was just about to go to bed I let her watch one more award and the winner was Melissa Etheridge. As her name was called she leaned over and kissed her wife. My daughter’s eyes got real big and said did she just kiss another girl. As if in slow motion as I was quickly trying to come up with an answer maybe I could say one was a man or maybe they are foreigners. But before I could say anything Melissa thanked her wife and children. My daughter then said did she say her wife? So Sunday Feburay 25th at 8:58p God had my appointment with my daughter to talk about homosexuality. Not sure what God’s plains are for me this week but I am praying it will be easy.

UNWRITTEN

It has been a long week. We are starting to potty train Brayden and it has not gone real smooth. The poor little guy has an ear, eye, and sinus infection. So he is not feeling his best. Anyway I was on my way to the dentist with Hayley and I had gotten this new CD. It has all the Nominees from the Grammy’s. I listen to this song “Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield” witch I have heard many times but this time it was as if God slowed everything down so I could really heard the words. I love it, it spoke right to me. I have attached the words for you. “Open up the dirty window Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find Reaching for something in the distance So close you can almost taste it”. I would love to be able to open up a window and just feel God love illuminate me. There are some many words in this song I love. Try to listen to this song now that you know the words. As I drove listening it was like God was speaking right to me, Kristy open your window let me illuminate you. It was my kiss from God that I needed after my long week.




Song: Unwritten Lyrics
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your innovations
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes,
but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, yeah, yeah

GRAMMY AWARDS

They make me feel old. I often find myself telling my 10 year old how hip I am but now as I watch the Grammy’s I feel old. I don’t know who many of the artiest are. I’m sure that I have heard many of their songs but just don’t know them. The highlight was seeing the Police perform. I am a big dreamer, so maybe next year will be my year. Someone will discover that I really can sing, and I will be up their thanking some one. Never dream small.